My So Called Gay Black Southern Life

Not so bad right now. I think the last trip frommy best friend helped me more than I thought. I forgot that you can choose to be sad or happy. Its all in how you deal with it. I had a momentary lack of thinking for a few weeks. Hell, most people don’t ever get out of that so I a few weeks is ok, I guess. Looking at things, I really do like the way my life is right now. Sure, I could use more pajama friends but that will come with time. I CAN be choosy with whom I let in my life, afterall, its MINE so I should be careful and thats ok. I’m glad that I coming back into my own….Things at the gym are going well. I am still there about 5 days a week or so. I am starting to make “gym friends” and we meet up for classes and do situps together and stuff, its fun and makes me happy. It makes going to the gym that much easier, well, that and the fact that there are dozens of naked men walking round the locker room talking about manly things with tehir dicks swinging. I still think thats weird, even for me. I guess that I just have never been comfortable with my own nudity and now I am seeing everyone elses. I AM getting over that though and even love the group shower in a nasty sort of way. Well, things at work are ok. We are getting a new computer system and have been in lots of training for the last few weeks. I am quickly realizing that most of our “leaders” at work are incompetant morons and that I have to step up to the plate if anything is going to get done. Its still so funny  to me that they are so amazed at what I do at work when I really actually slack (in my opinion). I know I could work harder but when you see everyone else with a no care attitude it makes you feel like “What can I do alone?”. So I do what is expected a maybe a bit more and everyone acts like I hung the moon. Its funny. If they knew what I was really capable of I guess they would have a heart attack and die but I’ll hold off on doing that. I’m trying to make this radio thing work for me..Well, gotta run and get ready for work!