Lack of Concentration
So I am having a hard time concentrating these days. My best friend/future wife Shannon tells me that I am going into whatever kind of funk she recently escaped from. I have no motivation with regard to work or much else - sorta of feeling zombie like for the most part. Its not to say that I depressed but I just feel weird. Thats as best as I can describe it. I want to hang out with people but I am not satisfied with my current options..Thats too funny. As far as things go with th efrat boy, he is just plain ole weird and I am really thinking those feelings have about run their course. I hung out with him yesterday and realized that I don’t like the way that he responds to his emotional issues. He is sort of spastic and childlike…NOT in a good way and he is way to passive aggresive for my liking. I think I’m overdue for meeting people like I did back in the college days. It was so much easier then, perhaps because our “walls” were not so high. Who knows..? All I know is that I miss having someone close by to call up and go out hang out with comfortably, with nothing to hide. Everyone here is someone that I have either wanted to sleep with, have slept with or they want to sleep with me and all of that gets in the way of a truly relaxing, good time. Thats usually why I am friends with girls and not guys but for some reason have alot of guy friends at the moment. I MISS my girls!! Anyways..I had my first radio broadcast yesterday and it looks like this could lead to some good things for me. I am now trying to focus on getting the show off the ground and promoting it as best as I can. I’ll keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best because I am really suited for entertaining people and hope that can get me a real gig somewhere down the line. Well, I better get ready for the gym, its gonna be a busy day.
