Me & Garden Tools?
Who would have thought? Me, dirt, tools? I tell you, this home ownership thing has made me a changed man. I woke up early this morning and cleaned out my flower bed in the front yard and went to town. It’s still a little naked but it looks better than the mound of weeds that were up there prior. Today is a ho-hum kind of day for me with lots to think about. I have been going through fits of laughter, sadness, and everything in between these last few days. I think what it boils down to is my lack of being satisfied. I know, who is ever truly satisfied and content with what they have? I still think back about the good old college days. I had plenty of “pajama friends”. You know, friends you just chill out with and have a good time doing nothing with. The kind that you can laugh with, lay with and watch TV and even at times get dressed up with and hit the town. I don’t really have that anymore with anyone here and it makes me sad. I have tried to get on that level with people but I guess I get more “guarded” as I get older as does everyone else. What a pain. I guess its the same way with “looking” for a relationship. It will not happen as long as you are actively pursuing it so I’ll give it more time. That’s really all I have. Speaking of relationships, this thing with the frat dude has got to stop. I really don’t think he is into me at all so I need to stop kidding myself and try to salvage some sort of friendship from it. He is just so weird around me, hot then cold. Like last night, he called me a few times during the day and we ended up going out to dinner. He was DRESSED and looked great! We went to a local Mexican restaurant and as I parked he got drinks for us inside. We ate and stumbled through conversation. He didn’t really seem to be there in the moment and that made me uncomfortable. He was also acting wierd, putting food on my plate with his hands and fingers and eating off my plate and putting his food on mine with his fingers, all very odd for a 34 yr old to be doing this. It was cute though and we did laugh alot. Afterwards, I went back to his house and he said he was going to bed so I left. It’s just weird. I’m not used to that and can’t read it so I give up. Maybe it’ll ease up as we get to know more about each other but how do we do that seeing each other one day a week? Oh well. gotta take the dogs to the park.
