A general disgust
Yeah, so I pretty much have a general disgust for people right now. Not everyone but most people. I just look at so many people and its like they are speaking another language. Do they not know whats going on? Can they not see? I know I sound crazy but I feel like the eyeglasses of life have been removed and I can see things for how they are. So many people do not want to accept their feelings, their lives, the truth and it makes me sick. I used to be able to smile and get past that but it is something that makes me ill right now. Sometimes I just want to scream, scream loudly. Maybe that will make me feel better. I sometimes feel crazy like a caged animal and can't explain it. I really hope that I get through whatever it is this is. I just want to be left alone, yo uknow, Get back down to the basics of life and strt rebuilding. I saw the ex, Justin a few days ago. He gave me a book to look at for work to help me with my training ideas. He couldn't even look at me. He pretty much threw the book at me and walked away. It was sad for both of us I think. I haven't told anyone about it because we don't need to be in contact and I am not in the mood to be preached at right now. He noticed that I have lost lots of weight. Not that it means much but he noticed. Ughh, anyway, not going down that road again. I was stupid to do it the first time.
